WRITER she's an ex-alsagoffian and is currently
taking her diploma in islamic banking in siiuc.
she has no life and is remarkably dumb.
she has never really excelled in her studies.
she has the passion in picture editing and graphic design
despite the zero-skill in hand. attached blissfully to a guy with a remarkable nick, wanjawa.
loves group slacking but always has the least tendency to do any talking.
she's not that feminine and rarely wears skirts.
she loves any kind of vigorous sports activity.
wanting so much to go on an island trip for a sweet escape.
perhentian and redang island would be nice enoughhhh. she's nabilah safaruan btw.
(1:03:49 AM) nabilah: eh ansuntong (1:03:58 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: yes sutun (1:04:06 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: tak tdo lagi kepe (1:04:11 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: tunggu sutun nye crite start eh? (1:04:14 AM) nabilah: tklah seh (1:04:16 AM) nabilah: hahahha (1:04:23 AM) nabilah: sutun nye cite dabis la (1:04:29 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: oohh tadi ader? (1:04:54 AM) nabilah: ade.season finale (1:05:01 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: hahaha.. (1:05:42 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: wahh.. popular ar sutun nie eh (1:05:48 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: nnti nak kena buat cerita udan plak (1:05:57 AM) nabilah: hahahhaha (1:06:07 AM) nabilah: citer udan untuk oran yan tk matan udan ar (1:06:29 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: yeah.. tu pasal ar.. nnti abg han popular (1:06:33 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: tapi tak berlakon lembot2 ar (1:06:47 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: tak bolehh.. jatoh maruah i.. nnti kena terjah dgn kru melodi (1:07:32 AM) nabilah: tkpe.kru melodi mmg suke.nnti dorng kate seperti udan mengajar anaknye berjalan betul (1:07:47 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: dgr2 udang boleh jalan (1:07:48 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: hahahaha (1:08:39 AM) nabilah: dgr2 tk boleh eh (1:08:41 AM) nabilah: eh tk boleh ke (1:09:01 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: mane boleh.. dier boleh berenang2 je (1:20:20 AM) nabilah: mak bpk kakak abg yazid sume sihat2 ya om? (1:20:45 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: sihat2 banget. (1:20:50 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: orang2 sane sume sehat? (1:21:29 AM) nabilah: biasa2 ja dong dong cheng (1:22:27 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: oohh.. dorang main dong dong cheng eh kt sane? (1:23:08 AM) nabilah: a'ah.boring2.tkde class.siap ar.. (1:25:55 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: wahh.. siap menurun ar sume (1:26:01 AM) I M S U P E R M A N: fuhh dasyat tu
a sensible update? you dont wanna know when!!! =P
pens down at, 02:59 am
Friday, 10th October 2008
i'm satisfied!
Results out! ALHAMDULILLAH, Thank You Allah! =)) *sujud syukur*
I can't wait for tomorrow's raya with the couples. Macam cute gituuuu! Check out for pics on my next entry, confirm korang kepo gils. ;P
pens down at, 05:10 pm
Monday, 6th October 2008
d
he can be the reason why i wanted so much to go back to kl very soon.
and he can also be the main reason why i'm looking forward to go back to sg
you are just one of a kind, kid.
he's just two btw. incase you might think he's in pre-school.heh
had our break fast near haig road there. i grabbed for myself a kebab and 5 pieces fish otak2. we were roaming while searching for the best place to settle down when suddenly a mat approach and offer their spot at the playground to us. we declined as they need that place too for buka, but one guy quietly claiming that they aren't fasting. so nice of them for offering the place, but too bad, Allah baru nk grant pahala for their kindness, skali..aiseh..tk puasa. haha!
had so much fun with the girlss. thanks for the laughters babes. hope to see you guys again for jalan raya! mmuah3!
Anyam some ketupat just now! I'm so proud of myself :) The art of anyaming ketupat shouldn't be left forgotten. See, even some makcik and pakcik still donno how to anyam ketupat..*sombong giler aku* =X
hari raya is just few days ahead ya! i have like three new pairs of baju raya and two old one that can still be used. i'll be wearing pink+white baju kurung modern for the first day (but the baju still in the process, mum still sewing it -.-"), purple kurung pahang which i bought somewhere around KL and another AC's kurung modern black in colour for second day onwards.
pens down at, 1:10 am
Friday, 26th September 2008
sensible update after months
Currently, I just finished completing my first semester of second year's exam and so far, of all the three big exams I've ever had, this was the toughest one. I don't think last minute preparation is the cause, as I've been practising that even during my secondary school days. I don't blame the hectic activities either. Urm.wait.maybe yes at certain point. But to top it all, I think the courses itself. Although I was just carrying five modules with 13 credit hours in hand for my third semester (to compare with previous semester; 6 modules & 16 credit hours), it was indeed a tough combination. three cores with three credit hours each (fundamentals macro & costing) seriously kicked my ass off. i'm not sure if my essay and case study for macro and fundamentals do make sense. main pukul bantai je! hurhurhur. mandarin II? that's another problem. my essay bkn main full one page. hehe! i even wrote the pin yin but when asked the other semester 4 candidates who're taking the same exam, they didn't write it. damn. waste my time only. as an overview for all these five modules, none of them I can say is chicken mcdodol. maybe i'm just too dumb dumb for that. hee.:D
enough of that.
Singapore is fine. Went to geylang few days back with dear family excluding abg han. (Have not seen that guy since I came back here. But he'll be coming back home tonight as claimed by mother). Back to the story, geylang is as chaotic as before eh. Urm. I admit I was a trouble and asked mom for this and that=D I got myself a cool abaya! Very cheap one, only 55bucks. Can wear on hari raya and can wear to classes after that since mom always complain I usually buy stuffs for hari raya and after that terperuk kt almari. So yeah. hehe.. Went to shop for shoes with sis days ago. There's one this cool heels at charles&keith but being a pemakai-heels-musiman, i'm not quite comfortable with the 2-inch tall shoe. So I opt for something more comfortable and so i chose a pair from DMK. that one also suits for casual wear. again, so that i can use it even not during hari raya. hehe:)
life is so mundane. but going out with family hours later! *yiipeeyy* and tomorrow gonna meet shida and nir! *double yiipeeyy*
pens down at, 7:47 pm
Wednesday, 24th September 2008
-
I simply feel like smacking my head on the wall. or.. sleep and never wake up.
one thing you should do, is to never ask why.
I, is very hard to understand. go.
pens down at, 12:51 am
Friday, 20th September 2008
fenomena
before entering the exam hall...
last minute revision. "wo yao qu gouwu zhongxin he mai shoubiao. mingtian zaoshang ba dian ban.."
pengubat stress.
nadiah & sri..
serious lobang hidung aku mahal.
we were born on the same day, same time, same hospital but from different tummy. lol.
wakyon & belon. fine~-,-"
evil & angel.:P
picture above was taken minutes before entering the examination hall. surrounded with all the Akademi Islam's candidates who're taking their masadir fid diraasatil islamiyyah while i'm taking my Mandarin II. Huayu was quite tough though. hmms. tp tkpe, masuk hall tawakkal, kluar hall redha. =)
today marks sepuluh akhir ramadhan.:)
pens down at, 09:18 am
Wednesday, 10th September 2008
hee
i'm done with macroeconomics and fundamentals of management yar. the utmost crucial subjects ever..reason being, its sooooo theory. -_____-" few calculation for macro but 100% facts for management. concepts, contingency theories, managerial grid. leadership, thrust n on n on n on. as soon as candidates were allowed to open the booklet, everyone flipped from the back to look out for essay questions and guess what..the questions were damnnnnn tough okay. unexpected ones. we've to choose 4 out of 5 and each question carries 20 marks. mcm..mcm..mcm..haiya..mcm syaitannirrajim ah question die. one, flung.
you know economics and me doesn't coordinate well. so the paper oso quite hard one lor. but anywayssssss..i'm done with micro and macro and that makes my life freeee from EEEEconomics. please, please go away don't come again or i chase you away!
and now, i'm left with the number-related module, costing! atlast i've got to see some numbers here and there..:)
the exam will be held at 2:30 pm. few more hours to go and i think i better do some recaps. pray for me k! :)
counting days to 12 september. *batuk kuat2 giler* =P
pens down at, 5:23 am
Monday, 1st September 2008
updatesss!
i hate the fact that i miss arabic language sooo much.
i wish i could speak fluent arabic one day.
i remember i actually chose dip in arabic language as my 3rd choice. but hamdan lillah i got my first.:)
this yr is gonna be my 2nd ramadhan here, far away from the family.
sahur td mcm sayuuu je.hehe.
sri's family come over here just to celebrate first few days of ramadhan here. sweeet kn~ ;)
i'm so thankful that i was given the chance to meet ramdhan again this year:) and terawih at masjid alazhar yesterday was awesome. although they chose to perform only 8 rakaah, but the surah recited by the hafiz was great.
after 17 yrs plus of living, yesterday was my very first day wearing contact lens! heee. happy gils. :P
yeah. exams starts this thursday. 4th, ENL. 5th management. 8th macroeconomics. 10th costaccounting. 15th mandarin. i dont have any idea if there will be any amendments AGAIN. well, they've published like 5 drafts. if there's 6th..i'll burn them to death.
wut else? owh. 11 more days to the big big day yar. and again, its my 2nd year celebrating my birthday here. hee.
ramadhan karim, happy breakfasting! ;)
pens down at, 4:04 pm
Sunday, 30th August 2008
friends.
Friendship is not how long you've been together. It isn't how much you've given or received; nor how many times you've helped each other, but it's how you value one another.
pens down at, 2:49 pm
Wednesday, 27th August 2008
EEEEEEEE-conomy
I don't have any idea why an economist is an economist coz economics sucks big time man. Erm well. it is interesting in a way or rather la. *cover.tkt ilmu tk berkat.haha* Macroeconomics from an Islamic perspective? help me out with this pls. I've been economy-ing since pass few hours and got tired. so here i am blogging.
life has been pretty..busy? final exam for my third semester begins on the 4th of september. and ends pretty late, a week before hari raya! how cool can that be yar! -__-"
seriously, i havent prepare a thing for exam. this semester i'm gonna slack man. betol. everything also last minute. *pardon for the singlish cinglish minglish.i jz cant be bother.hee* ya..last minute. just imagine this, mr seraj assign a task which require us to interview the three levels of managers in a company, any company. the deadline is actually before finals and so we took our own sweet time. sweet enough when suddenly he changed his mind and set a submission date. we've to submit on friday but only on wednesday we went to the company and did the interview session. but alhamdulillah, everything (minus the tonggang tebalek tak tido mlm, perah otak, haunt for driver to go to the office) goes well and we still manage to get an A for that. heee. ok i think its a luck la hor.
GDP statistical discrepancy multiplier aggregate supply MPS MPC potential output cyclical structural and frictional unemployment fiscal and monetary policy aggregate demand investment..all of them are calling me.
so bye bye.
pens down at, 05:27 am
Friday, 1st August 2008
ada untukmu
im in confusion. =/
Aku Berikan kasih Kalau itu yang kau mahu dari ku Aku Berikan cinta Untuk membahagiakan hari mu Aku Sayang dirimu Biarpun nafas ku sampai terhenti
Akan ku kota janji kita Mendirikan Taj Mahal cinta Seteguh kasih Shah Jehan kepada Mumtaznya
pens down at, 4:40 am
Monday, 21st July 2008
i'm happy!
the crowd at the Tapak screamed happily last night as the deputy rector announced that he'll be giving two days holiday which is today and tomorrow due to the successful Extival program(expo&festival) that was held for four consecutive days, from thursday till yesterday. hehe!
yesterday's convocation was great. well, i think benda tu biase je..annual program kn. but considering i was given the priviledge to enter the convention hall, and take the view of the istiadat convocation itself, i was so happy man! seeing those seniors wearing their suit, topi 4segi and all...seriously i'm jealous. its like 2-3 years until my turn. hmmmmm.
and since today's holiday, i called mr omar yesterday, asking him whether or not he's gonna proceed with mandarin's midterm today. buat suara sedih la kn, terus die kate haiya2..next week la next week. bnyk kesian la u all. haha! coool. satu bende haram pn tk blaja lagi. heeee=) but tonight, that rigid fundamental lecturer of mine, still wanna proceed with tonight's class from 8-10. reason being, we've alot more to cover people!! -,-" so?my problem meh? its u and how u handle the teaching plan what. haish. but don't worry, i'm coming. :)
pens down at, 12:45 pm
Thursday, 10th July 2008
syaza&darwish
this is a tale of a boy and his lil sister.
mane fair seh! men bola ngn abg yazid! mesti ar die menang kn!
stresss! stresss! rambut pun jadi tk hansem ar abey..?*smirks*
ha! boring2 kacau syaza ar eh!
think i can't get up on syaza's bed? think again!
syyyaaaaazaaaa! come play with abg la!
aiya..i forgot la.u baby one..cannot play rough2. -,-"
ala.tp kite boleh main celen2 mate ape. mata sape paling besar. *lol*
alololo~ okay2. kite men same2 k! ;)
kak nabilah says i look like her when she was small. prasaaaan je kn kn kn! kite lagi cute ape. *stepjambuface*
pens down at, 6:58 pm
Wednesday, 9th July 2008
update
At last i get myself to sit and watch Ayat-ayat Cinta after downloaded its 13 parts from YouTube. a good story, but to my amazement, it didn't really touch me..erm well not the extend of making me cry like bf did when watching with his friends..0___o heeee=) OH! Hancock was great too! ;)
I have two big assignments and one revision to complete. I brought back a bag FULL of booooookssssss yet, I disappointingly claiming that I've yet to start any of the task. Believe it or not, the bag is even remained untouched till now. Someone really has to smack my head on the wall and wake me up. *rolleyes*
Watching anugerah band for the first time and sui2 it has already come to its Grand Final. Fatskunks performed a very unique music eh!! ;)
last Sunday, i was clever enough to leave the house in rush that I left my phone charger and earpiece. i made a big fuss along the way to pudu. reasons being are, first, its gonna be such a bore sitting in the bus for 5 pathetic hours doing nothing (to make the situation worse, i hardly sleep in a bus so sleeping doesn't make a good alternative) and secondly, i can't imagine myself being phone less for a WEEK in singapore! x|
pens down at, 9:36 pm
Tuesday. 8th July 2008
sunset
calm and beautiful view of the sunset. the shot was taken from the desk in my room, there. (:
pens down at, 6:40 pm
Friday, 4th July 2008
what
ENL class this morning turned into some general discussion regarding various topics, from country's development, to itsy bitsy political issues, teenagers and their lifestyle, superstitions and religion, up till marriage life. there's only the 8 of us who were present just now and because of that small group, the tendency for oneself to express their thought was there. those who rarely speak up bravely voice out their personal opinions and perspectives and I can see that there is a two-way communication occurred there. (:
while walking back from class with sri shahidah and kak aniz, we spotted Eltabina from far. 25 of the singaporeans chartered the whole bus. kiterng sempat farewell kt diorang. we'll be going back tomorrow. midnight bus perhaps. not sure yet. btw, its a week hols. but it won't be a holiday for me. not at all ya.
shahidah locked her wardrobe. and the key is missing and nowhere to be found. we're waiting for rescue sbb si shahidah ni tknak kluar selagi almari die tk boleh bukak. aduiiii..
pens down at, 12:47 pm
Monday, 30th June 2008
update
martial arts performance on extravaganza was, okay-okay. i lost my focus, with big eyebags with effect of yesternight's incident.. that leads to..no moooood. hmmms.
juggling so hard with midterm. hours from now, management's. wish me luck yar.
i miss laughing so hard and grinning so wide.
the table.
pens down at, 1:04 am
Friday, 27th June 2008
forever
I'll be loving you forever Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never Even if you took my heart And tore it apart I would love you still forever
You are the sun You are my light And you are the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep at night You're always around When I'm in need When troubles on my mind, you put my soul at ease There is no one in this world Who can love me like you do So many reasons why I want to spend forever with you
*flying kisses from distance* ;')
pens down at, 3:35 pm
Wednesday, 25th June 2008
Cameron Highlands!
here are the photos during the trip to cameron highlands, specially organized by secretariat of international affairs for the new international students (freshies) only.
SIA committees (excluding Aziz from Chad)
thailanders
the scary bridge. (cameraman should capture from further spot)
enter-framed. riang budak2 ni
chad and nigeria
dayangkuss from negeri berdaulat, brunei darussalam
from SINGAPOREEE!
two important souls in SIA, khidhir and alyasa' together with them, haroun and bash.
from paparazzi's collection
ain, lil' alif and ahmed.
thailanders and alyasa' at the tea plantation
the 'backbones'
we get confused. latar kijang?litar kajang? latar kajang or litar kijang. i strongly think, its latar kijang. the waterfall at the highlands.
satay kajang! or, satay kijang? haha
she makes me look so big!
please understand that my main intention is to immitate the mascot, when the wind blew and it turned out like this. -,-"
giant cup at tea cameron valley
=)
all in all, THUMBS UP!
pens down at, 2:24 pm
Friday, 20th June 2008
stresss
the international gathering was postponed due to the disapproval from the student development department regarding the budget that we allocated on the proposal paper. its kinda rush you see. the program is on this sunday and the disapproval news reached us only by tuesday. we've prepared everything but we thought of keeping it on hold until we receive the approval from department (cenderahati, invitation letter, posters everything is ready. tinggal ckp ON trus sume gerak)
things change when there's some financial difficulties and department disagree to sponsor the big sum of money (12,000 bucks). thus, we were given two options: re-allocate the estimated spending within a day or, postpone the event. after countless brainstorming and consultation from the head of corporate and internationalization, we agreed to delay it to august. mister director, imran lilaeh from thailand was so stressed up. well, everyone does.
there's more actually to tell....the journey isn't this simple as written. but, i'll just let you know this la k. hmmm
i'm going to cameron highlands this midnight. yes, 12:00 am. all committees in the secretariat of international affairs are given the priority to tag along for the educational trip for new international students. executive committees namely me, shida kak aza, mister president Khidhir and extras like alyasa, nasae from thai and taha from chad are following.
hopefully everything goes well yar. hmm.
to a friend of mine, whom i respect soooo much, you simply don't have to bombard me with criticism and demoralising statement. it may be true but you could put it in a better sentence or better, you don't have to comment at all. i just start crawling and you expect me to run. i am very new in this field and you expect me to produce an impressive outcome. you can tell me my weaknesses but not criticizing me. unless you're very good enough.
i make my silatkids training so hard for your Extravaganza. in return, you criticize my program. i am too weak to encounter criticism especially when you smack it directly to my face.
i'm just beginning to crawl but you make me fall, nafisah.
best regards, nabilah
pens down at, 3:01 am
Saturday, 14th June 2008
i'm. tired.
I've been pretty busy this past few weeks. international gathering, trip to Cameron Highlands, newbies silatmates, kembara al-quds and extravaganza.
I'm not directly in charge with ALL of the programs stated but well..you know, once you're IN the committee, means you'll be dragged along and they will MAKE YOU involve whether you like it or not. Things turn even worse when...you're posted in the secretary line.
Please remind me not to get involve with ANY organization next year. yup next year. meaning to say, I HAVE to bear this for two semesters, now and next semester.
meetings till midnight. proposals..reports..minutes... haunting for signatures..approvals.. sponsors..MONEY.. dealing with suppliers.. attract people's attention..posters.. publicities..
I'm sick of them.
now, i'm juggling so hard between these stuffs and my studies. i can't deny it affects my focus on studies so much. but, these are also an amanah, and i'm responsible for it.
its just that..i don't have enough rest and sleeping time. besides..i'm not sure when was the last time i talked to Ridzuan on the phone for more than atleast..say..30 mins? and i hardly remember when was the last time i dialled home number..talk to mum..and ask how is she doing..
Oh Allah, your slave is sooo weak.
pens down at, 07:38 pm
Thursday, 5th June 2008
bore
down with flu, fever and cough. everyone is going back to singapore this week. but me and sri won't.
that makes only both of us left in the house. and she'll be having some programme at the campus on sunday. don't tell me i'll be ALL alone........hmmm..
what a life.
pens down at, 12:50 am
Friday, 30th May 2008
what i am up to now.
Peace be upon to readers. :) It has been so long since the last time I updated this diaryland properly. I simply find no free time at all for me to sit infront of my lappy and pour the bloggie with updates of my daily life. But now, I hope I chose the right time and spot.
Everyone is already back in their respective rooms after slacking and lepaking together in the living room. Since schedule has not yet packed with school stuffs and not much assignments and datelines around the corner, we still have some free time to lepak together but I guess things will change in a few weeks time whereby everyone will be very, very busy. So just lets make use of this moment now. ;) The new apartment is a total new environment, I like it so much. The house in whole is still incomplete but we believe in moving step by step. Mini bar is on the top list and so I shall put washing machine and tv set on the 2nd & 3rd.
On yesterday SIA's(Secretariat of International Affairs) meeting, Mr. President has proposed me to take charge of the board. I'm not sure if I'm doing this alone but I think so too. Besides, an international student gathering(freshies,juniors&seniors) will be held and currently in the planning process. It is lead by Imran from Thai and Qamry from Cambodia while me and Sharifah Useng from Thai as the back up MTs. Another programme by SIA with collaboration from K-Muamalah, AMAN PALESTINE, U.S.I.M and KUIS will be held at the end of July till early August. A whole week event will be filled with road shows, forums, concerts and performances and an extravagant dinner that cost a minimum of 150 bucks per head. The whole event acts as a platform for donors to contribute something to Palestinians thus help lightening their burdens while at the same time enjoying the entertainment provided. We're now trying our best to gather buyers for the costly dinner and of course we're targeting corporates and not students.
The shirt that I designed for Ain Society has been printed! :) and sis asked to design her wedding invitation card. Just a simple one. Mane punye pro nta ehh..hehe~
pens down at, 01:28 am
Tuesday, 27th May 2008
short2
wireless is superb. jakun skejap. but too bad, i've got nothing to blog about :)
love, bil.
pens down at, 07:38 pm
Friday, 23rd May 2008
after break
OR Room
One People, One Nation, One Singapore
Induction day, orientation day & jejak kampus was really marvellous. JK was the best among all because the bond between facis and the freshies IS there. They're simply adorable. I just don't have the exact and perfect word to describe how I feel about the programme. More pictures at Khidhir's camera but being so selenge, he as the owner of the camera himself doesn't own any device to transfer the images to soft copy. I shall borrow bro's card reader and bring back there. Yes, I just reached Sg this afternoon :)
Thanks a zillion Dearie for the trouble travelling to KL, JUST to fetch your Ayang. And thanks a trillion for the watch and shoe. :) I love you. *flying kiss*
few hours ago, stepped into the home sweet home and rushed again to meet sri shahidah ravuan and kak aniz at IKEA. we bought some kind of tempat gantung baju for our (me, sri and shahidah) room and some stuffs like tempat letak pinggan, cutlery stand, tempat letak used plastic bags for the kitchen. also, me sri and shahidah bought some kind of decorative wallpaper bentuk bunga2 for our room. we just need to peel and paste it on the wall. serious, lawa gilerrr. i'll capture a picture of it once its ready. all in all, we spent around 80 bucks. not counting the rice cooker that we'd just bought few days ago.. and daddy asked whether we're interested to buy a 2nd hand 29" tv set selling at $100. that one ive yet to discuss with the others. fuhhh!
pens down at, 07:39 pm
Monday, 5th May 2008
last day with..
I've had problem with my extreme left bottom tooth for quite sometime. And it had somehow caused the gums (somewhere around the aching tooth) to swell badly. It hurts so much that I can't give myself a full bite. Meaning, I have to grind foods (especially hard particles) on my right-side teeth or just swallow it without grinding. Thought it was just another ulcer and applied bonjela but it doesn't work after weeks. So, I decided to make an appointment at Crown Dental Surgery accompanied by dearest. The doctor claimed that my youngest tooth is teething, it is called wisdom tooth or teeth for my case (yes, two of them). Since I'm under 21, I've to attain parents' consent in order to undergo the operation which consist of taking off the tooth. Another option is to just let it grow and endure the pain. Though the operation is 100 times painful but it is advisable, once the pain is gone, it is gone forever. But if one opt to let it grow, it might take some time for the pain to disappear even on medication.
I'm going back to kl tomorrow so meanwhile I'll just apply the medicine as prescribed by doctor. In case it aches badly during the teething process, I'll get him back to take it off.
Two months ago, I was so happy as I'm free from school, came back to Singapore on 9th March, and met every soul whom I miss so much. Weeks later, I start thinking of going back there far more earlier than planned, due to the extreme boredom at home. But now, when the time comes, I just don't feel right. I wish 6 May is a week from now. I wish I'm not involved with that orientation thingy so I can at least spend a week more here.
I followed quite a number of tv series during my break. I hope we can share some money, buy a TV set (chow those cheap2 one oso can) then place it at our new apartment. Yeah! Apartment! It's gonna be fun with Sri, Sabirah and the others under one roof! =))) At least I found something that I look forward to. Although it is still somewhere within the school compound.
BYE readers!
pens down at, 04:32pm
Sunday, 4th May 2008
i'm mad about carrrsssss
Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution X
sleeeeek! i've yet to find a picture taken from its rear posture; the part where i'm very particular with, whenever i cuci mata with cars. since BMW was a harga-terantuk luxurious car, i'll choose this as an alternative. i used to like subaru wrx but that one got this ahbeng's look ar. so strike out. chey..bebual mcm consfirm beli gitu..haha.
this is really cool. now, make a guess. where does this picture took place? a)marina b)kranji c)geylang
happy trying! haha!
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Saturday, 3rd May 2008
Freedom Writers
"Freedom Writers" is inspired by a true story of a teacher and her Long Beach students. A film which had made my tears rolling throughout the 17 chapters on its DVD. Initially what attracts me to FW was its novel 'Freedom Writers Diary' which was borrowed by sis from the library. I was understood that it is based on a true story and besides being delivered in a form of written words, a film was also produced later on. As far as I concerned, the novel was published in 2006 and the film was released in local cinemas at the end of March last year.
I may be too late to admire FW, but if you still don't have any idea of what FW is, then don't hold back cause this is something that you really can't afford to miss. If you ain't a bookworm like me, grab the DVD.
every voice, that told you "You can't" is silenced. - Ms Erin Gruwell screenplayed by Hilary Swank on Freedom Writers.
certain IPs might not be able to view protected entries. lets see if you're one of them.
best regards, nabilah@diaryland
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Thursday, 1st May 2008
LIFEBOOK
I think I never reveal anything about my lappy here, maybe because of the guilt that I've yet to overcome it. Fujitsu had made a great jump from a high surface (estimated around my waist's height) right towards the ground. But Fujitsu had somehow convinced me that its condition was stable when there was no immediate foul occured. Feeling very much relief, I continue operating Fujitsu and made F my bestfriend. I even managed to bring F travelling to and fro; Selangor to Singapore and vice versa. The incident happened quite sometime ago but the effect was only shown months later, where - it stopped functioning. Dragged F to Sim Lim Square where the salesman there promised me very convincingly that F was at stable stage and that he'll manage to cure F. Again, feeling pretty much relief, I put on a very high hope and just wait for another two weeks as promised by that fella.
Two weeks later, the daddy decided to give'em a call and that was when they claimed that F's chances to be able to live again was a total zero. No one can tell how sad I was that time but having to realise I'm the one who caused F's accident (tersandung the charger's wire while it is charging), I'm indeed very guilty. Considering that we've just been together for less than a year and I've caused a big hole on Mum's/Dad's pocket, the guilt was doubled tripled and quadrupled.
But what touches me most, after all those trouble I created, they still have the heart to buy me a new notebook. They even expressed their worry thus make it a point that I MUST get a notebook before returning back to Selangor which is less than a week from now. I swear I told them that there are thousand desktops at the CC which are reliable for me to do my assignments but Mum pity me as it will be much more convenience having your very own notebook.
How, just how should I thank them?
Rest In Peace, Fujitsu Lifebook S-Series.
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Friday, 25th April 2008
inside my head
Bunga, Beri aku satu kesempatan lagi
Jangan sampai ku mengemis padamu.
Bunga ku berjanji kali ini akan kutepati
Karena aku lelaki. -him.
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Thursday, 24th April 2008
touched.
so, yesterday was the terubat-rindu-day. like nir said, how on Earth can i describe it? (: thanks so much candies. erm, eventually all we did was talk and talk and talk. we did alot of cathing ups. from school stuffs, working life, families, boyfriends, old schoolmates, artists and up till future marriage. settled down at cavana for hours where i only had my chicken sausage then headed to esplanade and suntec for a walk. thinking that there's still something to talk about, we settled down (again) at mcdonald's for hours. luckily we chose cushioned seats klw tk patah jugak pinggang.(:
the four of us may pursue to four different paths with our four different interests and four different goals in life. but one thing for sure, the bond will never break.
NIR, be strong alright. you're climbing a wall to see what lies on the opposite side. you can't simply take a hammer and break the wall. u may have to climb, up till the peak. then, you can see what lies there. and trust me..you're about to reach. few steps more to go!(: i simply adore your sacrifices and the way you take up the responsibilities as a sister and a daughter. you, are one in a zillion, u know??
SHIDA, the one who always makes me think that life is a problem-free. very coooool giler, relax and hardly show her sorrow to others. she has already envisioned her future and very clear of what she's going to be. keep calling me 'kak', and i will always address you as 'kak' too. hehe.. siape yg kakak pn tk tau eh kak~ (:
SRIWAHYU, surprisingly quiet yesterday and done the least talking. i'm not sure what she's up to but i really hope she's okay. and if she's really not, i'll make her talk. hmmf.
to all, Fir Iman and Atiq are sooo lucky to have ya'll. hehe :))
i don't mind having few close friends. as long as those i have are..you guys. *hugssss*
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Monday, 21st April 2008
a fast one
i'm gonna have a very loooooooooooooooooong chat with nir, sri and sheyda 12hours from now. can't wait!
did i tell you i jz got myself a new pair of glasses, again?! haha! aku collect specs apee. but this is the bestest one. nah..next entry would be 'my live span with spectacles' pulak laah. tuari dah handphone kn..haha!
ermm..i hope dear's dearie gonna get well pretty soon. yellowred ridie, pls don't make our dear angry okay.. because he cared for you toooo much, sooo much than he cares for himself. and if you continue acting this way, you're indirectly putting his life at risk. so please..
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Sunday, 20th April 2008
ABANG HAN. <3!
hope you're doing fine there in taiwan brother. i'll be travelling back to selangor on the 6th, while you'll be reaching Sg on the 7th of may. if only i don't get involve with the freshmen's orientation week, i could have meet you abang. sayang, the program start on the 7th itself. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
your family miss you soo much. (:
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Wednesday, 16th April 2008
that, kid.
showing some potential being mat rempit
the super hyperactive 2 year old kid. although you always irritates me, pull2 my hair like nobody's business, smack me when i'm eating, switching off the pc when i'm using it, messing up my bed and room, punch me with no reason, cekau my face whenever i try to calm u down, wet my pants when i'm showering u, make me chase u at the shopping centre while u laugh and giggle as u thought i'm playing some hide-and-seek...and..you know what kiddo? i still love you, just like my own brother. =)
i'll definitely miss you when i leave sg next month. but i think i'll miss cebok-ing you more than i miss you! hahaha! because nobody dares to smell your taik except me and bik abah! =P
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Thursday, 10th April 2008
inconsiderate;
how inconsiderate can a singaporean be? bumped my bike, and walked away. think funny? think again. cause i have bruises and deep cuts on my kneess and other part of the leg. and the vital part of the bike spoilt badly. and since both legs affected, i walk limply with jerky movement.
now, where's the courtesy singaporeans? (nak aje maki, pakkal public blog).
luckily a man whom i call the bestessssstttt person on EARTH were there for my rescue.
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Tuesday, 8th April 2008
they lay the cards on the table, and i'm choosing this!
i'm practically one third done with my dip. before proceeding to the second third of it, i'm really hoping for the best for my first year's final result mid may. amin. i think, what i'm doing and pursuing now, is really my cup of coffee. i'd faced enough failures and disappointment and i'll make sure it works this time around. i do have a very high ambition but revealing it here won't make any good but will only be seen as bragging. so i prefer to remain it undisclosed.
i'm glad i don't opt for As. cause i'm nowhere near average when it comes to GP. dumbdumb!
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pens down at, 11:29 pm
Monday, 7th April 2008
erm.
i simply, have got nothing to say. *blank*
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Friday, 4th April 2008
sleeping habit. flight.
i hate to fall asleep when maghrib is nearing, i simply hate it. because i will end up waking up its either my head is super dizzy or my condition is super blur mcm squid. as abg woke me up for maghrib, i tried to remember what brings me to bed, but i can't. grrrr. i'm not so sure if i niat for maghrib correctly and i don't even think i recited yasin very well. i blankly sit and read what i see. (what i don't tu kire telelap jap ah. mcm tk paham2 lak) it has always been like this and i hate myself for sleeping. yg magicnye, after reciting yasin, alamak boleh terus segar bugar ni! General of Satans mane je siot dah duduk kt mata aku.
abg han off to taiwan tomorrow. i'm jealous okay. everyone has got their chance taking the flight, with sponsors keliling pinggang. abg himself was sent by ITE twice to aceh and bangkok. and the blardy ns sent him to brunei earlier and now to taiwan. kakak just came back from kl and now to medan. abg yazid's attachment was at cambodia. all by the air. die die i wanna take flight, well atleast for my very very last trip from kl to sg. when's that? 2 years from now? hmmm. well i think i'll opt my final year's attachment at Dubai. maybe can ask sponsors from chan brother's travel. i can perhaps help their agency economically by being a mascot.
by then you can see me on screeen advertising, YOK PERGI DUBAI! =P
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Friday, 4th April 2008
wierd.
Why is it that we wish we didn't have to go through the preparation & the hassle, but after everything was over, we wish we could do it all over again? like, EXAMS. i actually studied tomorrow's exam the day before so it reflected my results and i'm not gonna regret with the outcome. but for now, i kinda miss..the books, lectures and the study environment.
haahaa. something wrong with me somewhere.
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Thursday, 3rd April 2008
license. birthday.
having to see everyone surround me has got their class 3 driving license, i can't deny that i am, too, eager to learn it. received 'green light' and sponsorship from dad to take up my license there, is enough to make me a happy goober. =) but on a darker note, i have to stay without going back to homeland for as long as four solid months. well, that acts as a vital condition that must be obeyed in order to get my license converted legally. we'll look and see how.
dined in with family at bedok corner after fetching abg han from amoy quee camp. since abg yazid's 22nd birthday falls on 8th and abg han will be sent off to taiwan on the 6th, we advanced the surprise celebration to last night. shocked and speechless, that was merely his reaction. abg han specially ordered an original adidas newcaslte jersey with YAZ and number 22 printed at the back while kakak and abg aidil bought him a G-Shock Casio watch. me? i just provide the tempat persembunyian for both item. okay jugak ape kn. =) happy advance bro! ;)
i can't stop asking mum for a new spec. but my persuasion was to no avail. -.-
Demi cintaku pada mu Ke mana pun kau kan ku bawa Ku hujung dunia ke bintang Kejora
Demi cintaku padamu Kukorbankan jiwa dan raga Biar pun harus ku telan Lautan bara
nada; romantis. unsur bunyi; asonansi(pengulangan bunyi vokal 'u) gaya bahasa; hiperbola & inversi. kedua-dua rangkap berpolakan rima a-b-c-b *coughs* =)
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Monday, 31st March 2008
archery.
The archery basic introductory course was worth mum's 20bucks. It was great than expected but not as easy as expected. First few shooting was impressive, but when the energy decreses, i started spraining both bow arm and drawing hand. i began to have a hard time converting the elastic potential energy of the bow into kinetic energy of the arrow. the toughest part is to actually draw your string hand towards the face where it should rest lightly at an anchor point or precisely the chin, doing so will need a whole lot of energy and the whole body plays their part. position of the face, elbows, backside, legs and also your in and out breathing semua kene jage. thats physically.
mentally, ofcourse the aiming part. to aim, ofcourse you need to have a very good eye sight. now, this is the best part. the bow is held in the hand opposite to the archer's dominant eye and since i'm a right-eye-dominant and righty, i have to keep my left eye close when aiming my target point. luck just wasn't by my side when i didn't put on my glasses.(i don't dare to inform trainer. heh) when left eye is closed, ofcourse i will only depend on my right eye WHICH, the power is worth 150 or more compared to left eyesight, 50. so the result is, my vision is totally blurreeddd okay! wasted kan! *bacin(smelly)*.
hence, hitting bull's eye for quite few times are considered maravilloso! and excelente! for my case. 80cm radius target was easier than 40cm. my biggest achievement so far is hitting only red and yellow concentric rings(80cm-r) with 5 arrows drawn consecutively. kudos for a beginner. (: all thanks to the personal trainer for the crash course. i'm entitled to another game of uncountable shots for free! thinking of asking hunn to tag along. he sure can one la, hor.=)
enough on archery.
sis bought a cool cool brown adidas sweater for me. *coughs* hohoho~ :)
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Saturday, 29th March 2008
make a come back.
sec four 2006!
gambar wajib! =)
my childhood friend, aisyah!
:)
an unintentional s406 reunion! i love love love love love love love love it aloottt!
i was about not to attend school's maulud as i was very sure there wouldn't be anything interesting. plus, shida and nir won't be coming and sri's going with her family. so since plan A was ruined, i immedietely get my plan B ready, not until Bad sms asking what baju i'll be wearing tomorrow and her sms really gave myself 2nd thought. so for the sake of being fair, i intend to get both plans done and he agreed.(thanks! mmuah!) catch An Empress and The Warriors, had our lunch and off to alsagoff. there, i met all my secondary school friends back! this may sound not right but since graduation, we have not manage to have a proper and sensiblest gathering ever! among those who attended are mostly from kuis, kipsas and maarif.
met aisyah samsudin, the gossip girl. jumpe die confirm gossip mcm makcik2. dah dua tahun tk jumpe, lagi la mcm2 cerita die korek2. hehe! recalled back moments where we were very very very close together especially during primary 6. I really love the e'eh-kau-ingat-tak part, then we'll end up laughing non stop! the lame jokes that only both of us understand, and she still remember. miss ya alot girlfie! ;)
pictures credits to hayati and sabirah =)
to nir and shida, you just missed the fun dude.
p/s:sorry for my not-so-okay mood today hunn. but oh well, good job for cheering me up within minutes!
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Friday, 28th March 2008
nothing much.
I try my best to stick with this skin for atleast a week okay. (: i used to use the picture above for my very first self-made diaryland skin. modified a bit by desaturate it and adding up some wordings.
abg yazid has got his legal license this afternoon! minutes after that terus da bawak that huge trajet, marvellous! congrats yar ;)
mum is soo nice and sponsored my archery introductory course for me! mmuah3x! =)
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Thursday, 27th March 2008
usuluddin's programme.
as soon as hanisah sent this pic through msn, i grinned wiiiiiidddeeeeelllllyyy =) guys, thanks for giving me the once in a lifetime opportunity. i believe you did very well for the programme too. well, that is far more important that this banner.
i am sooooo touched! my work has been visualized!! =)) thats all. hee..:)
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Tuesday, 25th March 2008
two years ago.
"hi, i'm single 24 years old looking for a special companion. i can share my beeaaaauuuutiful room. i cook, i clean and i promise to be home by 7pm everyday."
irritating kn this mocca.sg's advertisement. da la muke mcm tapai basi. naik terhafal seh dialogue die. haha~
was friedster-hopping and found this cool cool picture at husnah khairany's fs account. i nearly forgot i was the one who editted it, dulu2 kire da cukup style ar. hehe.. since i lost my copy, i right-clicked on the image and saved it. this was during our final year's pasar amal. each and every class was given the opportunity to set up our own stall. and for all we know it is an annual charity-based event so to start off the 'small business', we eventually used our own pocket money and ofcourse the accumulated class fund which somehow turned out to be not so helpful (sbb ade yg tk bayarr and escape although it was just pathetic 50 cents a week!!!)
i'm not so sure who's the image consultant but seriously, i really really really think we were really cool on that day. ska kappa! heehee. ade la jugak some asatizah tengok kitorang atas bawah, pedulik ape aku~ hehe..:) if i'm not mistaken husnah designed the apron and her mum sewed it, exclusively for us. the cool cowboy hat was inspired by Taufik Batisah i suppose. haha. but toooooooooooo bad, i think i misplaced my apron and hat. =( and the best part was, we sold char kuwey okay! cool kn! dah ska2 abey jual char kuwey. hehe~ tapi laku tauuu! fried upon order, very fresh one. mcm pisang goreng panaas~ miss those moment seh..=)
my batch is said to be alsagoff's worst batch ever. I myself, disappoint school by 'terminating' the record that had been created beautifully since the past THREE CONSECUTIVE YEARS -- conquering the title numero uno in the intermadrasah quiz organized by alju. and my other friends too, had lost in few other interschool comps. we're neither academically nor practically talented. we're even nowhere near average. so to sum it all up, 2006 brings a very bad luck to alsagoff arab school, thank you.
despite all the negative and detrimental points stated, i still love secondary four 06. period.
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Saturday, 22nd March 2008
Syaza!
the latest addition! Syaza! =)
"adek syaza..say after me, aaadek" he still doesn't understand though. -,-"
"shhhh..don't worry syaza, ur abang is here to protect you, sleep tight sista."
Bik Rahimah had safely given birth to her 3rd child, Syaza at 7:14pm 21st March 08. Alhamdulillah :) and darwish, u're now a brother to ur new born lil' sister, so pls show good example okay? :) and don't forget, she's a girl. soccer obviously doesn't suit her.
say after me, "aaaaaadek..aadek" *run away. jump here and there. shouting goaaaaaall~!!* "darwishh..its ur sister~!" *take a look. laugh sarcastically. continue playing*
-,-"
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Wednesday, 19th March 2008
family matters
just had our late dinner at bedok south road. family's newest favourite port after simpang. one of the reason, perhaps the teh tarik. (super sedap! tak bedek!) my family (esp mom) will tend to compare the quality of a stall's tehtarik with another and find the bestest one. and believe it or not, everytime a waiter come up to take our order, with no hesitation mum will say 'teh enam'. hmmm. a tehtarik family? ahhha. and just now was the second get together with the complete six eversince i reached sg. its quite hard you see, abangs with NS and kakak with the hectic working hours. so we'll always make use of the time when everyone is at home for atleast a makan luar trip or a midnight stroll at mustafa centre. =D
i'd just refreshed my links after so long never been updated. ya, i eventually deleted unused urls (perhaps the user had changed it without my acknowledgment or the blog is closed permenantly or whatever reason that makes the url can't be found) and also blogs which have been set up for logged-in and invited readers only. and i'm being quite nice too for relinking blogs without being asked. ok, welcome.:)
this post is just an effort of preventing myself to sleep. i am trying my best to wait for him to reach sg safely. eyes, please don't get tired okaay. pretty please hor. xiexie ni.
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Tuesday, 18th March 2008
the darwish story
so much as i thought that staying at home is relaxing, its not. besides boredom and get irritated with Darwish, i have another problem with staying at home that is; it will make me fatter and fatter. yes, due to the syndorme dah tk tau nk buat ape, i will always tend to go to the kitchen and make sure that i stuff something in before stepping out from it. which is somehow, not good la. be it a packet of tit-bits or baby's food, asalkan masuk mulut and satisfy the stomach. thats it. asked mum, how many times did i ever tell her that i wanna start jog every morning, but ended up sleeping till noon. -,-"
darwish is being super cute lately. (atleast he thought he is) i was in the room using the desktop and aware that he's somewhere infront of the mirror in the same room. i hardly get to see what he's doing because the view is been blocked by the huge bed. suddenly i smell something very wangi. immedietely attend to him only to find out that he's been sprinkling the talcum powder onto the floor since i donno when. think what?disney on ice??-,-" i mumbled stuffs and nagged abit to show how furious i was with his action and that what he did was wrong. but it turned the other way round when he cutely pat his hand to the sprinkled powder on the floor and applied it on my face and head. the naive look and facial expression makes me melt and smile..=)
the next part yg mmg tk boleh nk melt2 lagi ar. i continued using pc after clearing up the darwish-made-disney-on-ice, when he came up to me and switched off the main power supply selamba-ly. these time, no screaming or nagging. i straight away carried him and make him sit quietly in the hall. eh kiddo, no matter how irritating u are sometimes, i still love u okay! ;) pictures tribute to Samsung SGH-F330. *coughs* =P
with love. <3
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Saturday, 15th March 2008
quotes to deliberate
"Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If nature allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been.
Certainly, we all need a helping hand at one point or another in our lives. And the strong must always be mindful of the weak.
But I believe the better way would be to lead by example and teach people how to struggle; not deprive them of it." -the storyteller.
an amateur masterpiece wrapped up. tributo para mi! ;)
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Saturday, 15th March 2008
troublesome fella!
Eversince i reached S'pore, i've yet to meet this boy.
this is all because of MAS SELAMAT.
please show up yourself, and let this soldier come back home, to meet his sister.. pleasee ya mas. -,-"
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Thursday, 13th March 2008
some updates
i won't miss semester two that much. like seriously. because the mendak classmates that makes the surrounding so bored. lesser people, and not as kecoh as last time. unless during lecture lah, tu terextra kecoh. heh. but instead, i'll miss the lecturers. aaall of them are so cool meh. =) sem 3's coming. and there goes my adek2 freshie going through the taaruf week this coming may. and too bad kiddos, i'm joining the taaruf committee. so yeah, u won't wanna know how tough it's gonna be, especially with me around. nyiaaahahahahahaah~ ^-,-^
met up with nir this afternoon. as much as she thought i helped her on control ledger accounts, i seriously don't think that i helped much. but anyway bestie, had a very great time with ya! ;) we MUST meet up with da rest sooner aite~ dropped by Perfumes & Cosmetics T2's outlet and theres CK in2u HIS edition selling at its best price. immedietely grabbed for hunney's belated belated b'day gift and presented to him minutes later. :) better late than never riggghhhhttt? ;)
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Monday, 10th March 2008
back in hometown.
i accidentally left two of my rings at UPM when attending the perasmian gelanggang that was held there. plus, my precious N70 'drowned itself' into a toilet bowl and died on the spot. luckily the 'body' had somehow been saved, by me. :'(
both items are gifts from ridzuan.
see how bad i am. *shakeheads*
on a brighter note, i'm in singapore peeps! its a TWO-AND-A-HALF-MONTH hols and i thought of working. but the process of searching for a job is something that i hate MOST. so, any recommendation is welcomed. =)
pens down at, 07:50 pm
Thursday, 6th March 2008
a month after.
peace be upon to readers.
yerp, blame the exam week for the lacking of updates. thank you for expecting more from me yar. ahahaha~ ive been viewing this dull page of mine repeatedly but never feel the need to update, hehe! exams are like ^^&*&*(#@#! i think i did quite bad. last minute preparation doesnt work for me this time around. the best part was, i looked at mandarin's exam schedule wrongly, i thought the code is MAN1102 when its actually MAN3102. see how bad i am for not even knowing my subject code!? *shakeheads* i thought its on the 29 Feb when its on 21st. i just realised it on the 18th. cool right! and i actually had papers on 20th and 22nd. seriously, stress nonggeng aku 3 hari tu tak tido! complained to hunney although i'm aware that he can't do anything except giving moral support. serves me right for revising at the very very last minute. besides, i'm gonna blame ISC and PSSLM for organizing farewell dinner few days before final. as the committee for both, yes it affects me ALOT.
and now, 5 down and one more to go. bye bye semester two! i am no more a freshie!
anyway, congrats sis for ur class 3 driving license! pls read her blog's latest entry utk mengetahui liku2 perjalanan hidup untuk mendapatkan lesen memandu tu..haha! ur effort has been paid off yar! and its funny how sis told me that abg yazid would actually put on the seat belts though sitting at the rear when sis' driving the trajet! haha, bahase nmpk~ sooner, its him and abg farhan's turn for TP. dah semua ade lesen, left me. hehe~